Thanks to friends who had been there for me and choose not to be there any more, they taught me a very valuable lesson of staying independent in every way possible. Thanks to them I know what it feels like to be betrayed and hurt, to the degree of sacrifice in giving up the one I love to keep my principles and commandment. Without them, I would not have seen the ugly side of human beings in order to appreciate the good. They taught me what I would never want to be. If they have to be selfish, then let birds of a feather flock together. The year that was, had seen so much covetousness that I have to let go in order to let live. It made me realise how much I could feel for something that meant so much to me and yet so little to the people who meant the world to me. It made me see life for what it’s worth……the differences that separate people and the similarities that keep them together. It taught me the magnanimity of letting go of the things I have no control over and with the things that I do, find the courage to do something about it.
The year that was had been a time to battle the differences and to fight for the opportunities in life that not everyone recognises. It had been a time of discovering oneself in the giving of my service and effort to build something that would last a lifetime. I learnt that everything in life requires commitment, be it to build, to keep, to maintain, to serve, to give, to support, life itself is a commitment. God had brought me over hurdles and each time I come out a stronger person. It may be my struggle to live with decisions made, for if I, had been the one to rebel, it wouldn’t be against man but against God. In setting resolutions for myself at the end of each year, is not going to make me a better or worse person if I don’t achieve them. It only means I have an objective in life to live for but only God can help me through each one if it’s in His will.
Thank God for friends who are here not when it rains but when it shines. I’d learnt that when you become a blessing to others, the joy spreads. The greatest gift is the comfort of silence between two people.This year, like the year that had been, I will continue to live by faith. Whatever God puts on my plate, I will chew. He has, after all, given me the biggest birthday present ever………He’s healed me of my allergy to red meat and I’m able to have beef, lamb and such again after 17 years. 2008 is going to be full of resolutions…….resolving to meet each one with all my might.
Happy New Year from me and Rufous to you and your loved ones!
Happy New Year Pam. I’m sure 2008 will be a good year for you. Keep diving!
Well written, girl. Happy New Year 2008 & don’t worry to much. God has His plans for each one of us.